For Song of the Week this week, I have chosen Coldplay’s song Fix You.
I chose this song because I spent a great deal of my adult life trying to fix someone who was broken. I did this without realizing I had become sick from this, that I was miserable, that all my relationships suffered from this, and that my futile attempts had, in effect, made me broken too. I have learned a lot from that experience and am moving forward knowing I won’t try to fix someone again. I tend to get lost and damaged in the process. And, most important, people who don’t want to be fixed, can’t be fixed. And if they want to be fixed, you simply need to support their own efforts.
Two years later, I feel like life has been breathed into me. I have been able to laugh, love, improve my relationships, and find what makes me happy. On this journey to rediscover me, I am happier and healthier.
This blog exists because I decided to finally pursue a longtime love of writing. I am writing for other online publications because I took a risk and applied. I am happy to call myself a writer now.
I am trying and succeeding.
I know I would never start a blog or begin writing professionally if I was still completely focused on fixing another human being. By finally realizing I had failed at fixing another (I write fail, but accept it was not for me to do), I gave myself the room to live.
I was stuck in reverse.
The latest accomplishment in my life is that in three days I will be entering a professional photography program. Now that this new adventure is beginning, I am excited and terrified at the same time. I am going to pursue another dream. While I am still afraid of failure, there is something deep inside me pushing me forward. There is a little voice telling me this is right.
There’s a light guiding me home.
Happy Friday Everyone!