Progress from Perfectionism

June 22, 2012

in Life Lessons

Perfection

The drive to be perfect- it’s an unwelcome quality still hanging on from my marriage. I battle this urge to aim for perfection in an attempt to extinguish the last bits of this nasty characteristic.

While my old life was a well-orchestrated, focused attempt at perfection, it is time to recognize no one, but especially a single, working mom, will ever be perfect.

The married me focused daily on being perfect. It kept a chronic disease from slipping into remission, created stress, and made me incredibly unhappy. But striving for perfection was a great diversion from what I didn’t want to face in my marriage.

The single me loves my new life. It is more complicated being a single mom, but in many ways much easier than the life I was living before the split. I am more relaxed, happier, feel more free to live my life, and I laugh daily.

The days I can embrace imperfection are my best. But too often I find myself with an unrealistic expectation of what I can accomplish or what I can comfortably handle. If I am not vigilant, the old perfection-seeking habit will creep back into my life.

Like yesterday, for example.

After someone complimented me on how well I am handling the balance of work and summer break for the kids, he received an unenthusiastic thanks for the compliment. When pressed, I explained recently I have been going to bed thinking of what more I should have accomplished, how I have fallen short that day, and trying to figure out what needs to be added to the next day as a result.

The feelings I had yesterday resulted from the frustration with all that was required to coordinate the day. A day that was busy with kids, work, grocery shopping, cleaning, a quick run, preparing to teach, and an afternoon that looked like this:

4:00- Drop Princess Daisy at tennis

4:30-Feed Monkey an early dinner and eat with him.

5:00-Pick up Princess Daisy from tennis

5:30-Drive Monkey to All-Star Baseball practice.

6:00-Hand-off Monkey to coach, who will drive him home after practice. Start drive to school.

7:00-10:00-Teach

10:45-Relieve babysitter

The critical, perfection-seeker in me wanted to focus on these thoughts as I was falling asleep last night:

  • I would have liked to spend more time hanging out with the kids earlier in the day, but I needed to work.
  • I would have enjoyed running a distance longer than three miles, but did not have the time.
  • It would have been great to finish the laundry, but it was too busy of a day.

Instead I spent time thinking about the successes of the day:

  • Princess Daisy spent the morning with her friend.
  • The kids enjoyed the pancakes I made for breakfast.
  • They had a fun afternoon at the pool with friends.
  • I squeezed in a run, which was better than not running at all.
  • The afternoon schedule was tight, but it was a success.
  • I enjoyed the students in my class last night, feeling a sense of accomplishment in helping with their pursuit of being successful bloggers.

Yesterday wasn’t perfect, but I fell asleep happy.

It’s progress.


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Chrysta Bairre June 23, 2012 at 12:03 am

I loved this post!

Progress, not perfection is a belief I’ve adopted in the past few years. This coming from a reformed perfectionist. Like you, trying to be perfect made me miserable and I got tired of being miserable.

Today I focus on doing my best, and making the best of every day. Whatever doesn’t get done is far less important than what does get done. It’s a more productive and happier way to live!

Have a grateful day!

Chrysta
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Naked Girl in a Dress June 26, 2012 at 12:14 pm

As always, your comments are a wonderful addition to my blog. Thank you for leaving an encouraging comment today.

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Corinne June 27, 2012 at 1:15 am

It’s a good thing when you try to be perfect but you don’t need to feel dreadful when the job always doesn’t get done in a perfect way. It’s okay if it’s good. You are making progress. That’s the principle.
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Naked Girl in a Dress June 27, 2012 at 11:27 am

Sometimes an imperfect moment turns into a serendipitous event. I am trying to learn that too.

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Elizabeth April 24, 2013 at 12:06 pm

I don’t know if this helps, but I’m married and still fall really short of perfection and spending the amount of time I wish I could with my kids. I think it’s great that you laugh more and you obviously do a lot for your kids. And here’s a confession: I have stopped washing soccer shirts and socks between practice and games. It was stressing me out to get the laundry done and they don’t sweat that much anyway.
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Naked Girl in a Dress April 24, 2013 at 12:14 pm

Thanks for visiting, Elizabeth, and for the encouraging words. It’s hard to do and have it all so I am trying to scale back and simply do my best–which is definitely short of perfect! Great uniform tip, too!

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Sherry April 24, 2013 at 1:56 pm

I love this and I’ve been in process, just learning to be okay with the days that are short of perfection. “Instead I spent time thinking about the successes of the day” — I like that! Thanks for the tip =)

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Naked Girl in a Dress April 24, 2013 at 2:37 pm

Thanks so much for visiting, Sherry! I fall short daily, but try to keep the perspective throughout.

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