Today I feel exactly as I did on December 11, 2009: day 364 of the separation. On that day I was filled with dread and anxiety as the one-year mark for the separation approached. I wanted the day to come and go as quickly as possible.
Tomorrow is another big day looming in my future. The day is fast-approaching whether I like it or not.
Tomorrow is my 20 year wedding anniversary.
I am not filled with as much trepidation as I was on the eve of the one year separation date. I learned and am stronger from that experience. December 11, 2009 came and then passed. There were the same number of hours in that day as every other day. The same is true for tomorrow.
It is for me to decide if I will enjoy it or endure it.
The choice is up to me.
This week I am writing a special series as a result of this big milestone in my life. The next four days will be filled with reflecting on gifts in life, how to look at endings as beginnings, understanding life can start anew at any age, to share and be inspired by others, and more.
I hope you will join me on the journey this week.
Come reflect, learn, and grow with me.
You are such a strong and positive person. I’m so glad I found this blog. Sending tons of light and love your way!!
Thank you for the kind words Summer. Very thoughtful of you.
Best wishes as you begin this week. I look forward to following along as you explore your feelings, your experiences, and all that you have learned.
It sounds like, even though this is a tough time, you are in a good place. I hope that remains true throughout the week. I also hope you can be kind to yourself and understanding if you have a twinge or two of teariness.
Onward and upward.
Thank you for the positive thoughts. I do hope it is a good week. I am prepared for whatever emotions come my way. I will honor however I feel in the coming days.
Thanks for checking in with me.
Usually the anticipation of the day is worse than the day itself. This is how I feel about the day my mother passed away. <>
Good for you. You can only look forward! I’ll be tuned in for your journey this week. 🙂
Barb,
Thanks for planning to visit this week. I hope you enjoy what I have planned to share with readers.
You are right, how you face this day is all up to you!
Thank you Mark. I am feeling encouraged and look forward to a special day with friends and my children.
I am looking so forward to this weeks blog posts!! I can relate to how you must be feeling, while I never rounded the 20 year mark on the day of our 10th anniversary I did exactly what you are planning on doing…reflecting on things that have changed…the strength and inner self that I had found…and was proud at all of it!
you are going to do great!!
I am so pleased you will be visiting this week to see how everything unfolds. There is a common thread that runs through the week; I hope everyone can benefit from what I have to share.
I can empathize with what you are experiencing. The emotions can flow from rising waves to ebbing tides. Hang in there and be kind to yourself.
You described it perfectly; it does come in waves. I will be taking it as it comes today. Thanks for visiting Urban Cowboy.
You rock. It is wonderful that you are choosing to look at this the way you are, as an opportunity to grow and celebrate yourself instead of dwelling on what was.
Thank you Rachael!